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today i never thought i would wake up and i had the most strangest of dreams. office depot called me and wanted me to come in to take a survey then after i took it they told me if they liked what they saw they would call me back. woot woot! i just ate a spicy burrito and i can already feel the heart burn...i guess you didn't want to know that but hey no one ever comments on here anyway.

When you have all day to think about everything that you want to aspire it makes you want to do everything in your power to do so. I really wish someone would hire me, I am well bodied and abled to work it is solely up to the place of business to respond. Ah, Jee, Gah. I need a soloution in my life for the time being.

Today I think I worked the hardest I have ever worked in my entire life. Jaime and I were the only tow male workers for the remodel crew, which sucked because we got stuck with all the major hard work (Pronounced Hi-me, hes a Mexican). We had to unload 9 trucks full of risers, cabinets, shelves and other stuff for the remodel crew. It took us a full 8 hours to get this done, I am slightly sunburned and really, ungodly sore...I can't believe I walked over here to Randons, Ha! Anyways, the only thing I am annoyed with is the building Wal-Mart rented out as a warehouse. The building is the old Gibson grocery store here in Odessa and hasn't been opened in about 26 years so the inside is all fucked up with stagnant water, the ceiling tiles are full of asbestos and the walls are caked with black mold. Somehow the city of Odessa has inspected and called it a safe work environment. I think Wal-Mart played them off somehow because when I was working in Remodeling/Interior Design we would come across a patch of black mold and the city would shut down the whole operation until a clean up crew would come out and clean the contaminated area. Hopefully someone will hire before the weeks over with so I can get out of that situation because it makes me very nervous working around those cancer causing agents. So pray that these other places that I've applied for will hire me, I really need a different job even if it is the same kind of work, the work environment at Wal-Mart and dealing with the obnoxious managers is becoming stressful again. Plus I overheard a conversation with two managers who didn't know I was near by working were talking about how they don't have any plans whatsoever to hire on us temps.

I understand why I don't get alot of replies to my livejournal is because I don't attempt to make friends on here either out of either lack of internet time or simply I am that lazy. Anyways, the only three things I really talk about in my daily life is Maura, Music and Movies...The Three M's. I always go through these stages of where I listen to one band or a certain style of music for a couple of days or weeks. Last stage it was old school stuff like Maiden, Priest, Destruction, Kreator and Sabbath. Right now its industrial, which I haven't really listened to Industrial music in a long time. Currently I've been rocking to some Circle of Dust, The Way Sect Bloom, Torn Skin and Level. Level by far is my fave industrial artist of all time, the man is so diverse. He can make harsh guitars, dance beats, moody vocals, pop melodies, noise and ambient trances all in one album with such ease. I tip my hat to this guy very much so. Circle of Dust is just classic to me and I don't much care for Klay Scott's new band Celldweller, some of the remixes are neat but the songs sound like utter crap for the most part. Really cliched, boring and commercial sounding. Not that commercial always means bad just so as the artist stays true to the what they wanted to do in the first place...Make good music. Most underground bands in my opinion that go mainstream lose a certain substance that made them good in the first place which is most likely originality. I think you can be mainstream and still have very effective innovated sound...Take for Example A.F.I. they probaly made one of the best avant-garde rock albums I've ever heard with sing the sorrow. Man I just ranted really, really bad. I need to go the movies, alot of flicks I want to see are coming out like The Brothers Grimm and The Chronicles of Narnia(which I hope they didn't butcher, dear God don't let them make it poopy). I miss Maura very much so and there isn't a moment of time that she isn't on my mind. My job situation is kind of difficult right now but if you guys(my few select friends who never really read this) would pray that I get a proper job with flexible hours or that wal-mart would make me a permanent associate allowing me to take off time to go AZ to get my somethings situated properly. Regardless of whatever I have my mind set up on what I am doing in life and how I am doing it.

Wal-mart is like 8 hours of mental cruelty. The interior is corrupted and I've never met a bunch of people with so much bad attitudes. It's like a majority of people here have a chip on there shoulder or something. Oh well. I need to start applying for more jobs after this first paycheck, I am only a temp. associate anyways.

I've been listening to alot of old school metal here lately. Judas Priest, Iron Maiden and Kreator as of some names of a few bands. Man old school thrash and power metal is where its at. Goood Stuff!

I am so sad that maura has left:)!!!!



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So yea um myspace.com took my myspace.com off because of the pic I had of katharine isabelle. Atleast LJ doesn't do crap like that. It's a pic from a movie it isn't even real. So I tried to make a new Myspace and it fucked up too because of some HTML code. I am so mad. Gah.

Eating chips and drinking Dr. Pepper with my friend Randon is probaly the highlight of my day. We decided to mow lawns for cash and get sunburns because we like cancer. Nothing new here outside of me going to Dallas next weekend to visit my brother so that means I will be on his internet the whole time so you people that know my aim better talk to me and not have a life. I need a band. Watch Napolean Dynamite with old people they won't get it.

I think I am going to get new user icons for LJ and I need to find a proper background I have had this same bland background forever it seems.

So you ever wake up knowing that want do something so bad but the limits of it seem impossible? That is my everyday life and I am just now finding ways to overcome. Good Deal. I am applying at Sams Club tommorow which like a Wal-mart but everything is sold in bulk sizes rather than normal size. I have to preach at church hump day so that should be a different change from teaching youth to teaching people older than me. I go to church camp in July agian and then in the same month I am going to San Antonio for street camp. I have a busy summer but its all worth it. I also got asked to volunteer running a christian venue here that my friends church is soon to open if all goes according to plan he also wants to make it a coffee shoppe. So some intresting stuff going on here outside of normality creeping into my life agian I guess I can't complain but I totally won't be happy until I get to see Maura.

I applied at wal-mart here in town for an overnight stocking position because I hate summertime and pretty much sleep when the sun is out anyway. Just in case I also applied during the daytime in the toys section, I refuse to grow up let alone use proper english. So anyways after breaking my edge I've gotten a lot of crap from some of my friends inwhich I pretty much deserve now it's just gotten old. I need to see a good movie...Star Wars Revenge of the Sith I fell asleep in which I knew I would. Sin City was awesome when I saw it I can't wait for it to come out on DVD. Anyways pray that I can get a job I have something planned that I wanna do for someone and it will take some cash flow.

Well I am no longer straight edge I broke it. I am kinda numb to the fact though I dont care anymore.

I need to see a good metal show all I have seen in the past year is metalcore and hardcore shows. I am ready for a death metal band and the band thing is Vehemence canceled. What to do, What to do?

I think that living in odessa has became a curse. I have good friends and that always makes me grateful that I am not alone but I have nothing else to do. Odessa is about the hardest place to find a job ever, I've applied everywhere and still nothing. Please pray for me. I am discouraged about this...meh. Where is my future?

Man...I am like a ghost on here. I miss having my own internet. Poop.

I might get to see some really good out of town shows this month and next. All That Remains, Throwdon and As I Lay Dying are heading to Lubbock and OPETH are going to be Dallas. My only thing is I don't know if the Opeth show is all ages or 21 and up. I'm only 20 so that would blow gorilla chunks. Eh?

I have nothing better to do than ride my bike and listen to metal after 5 p.m. I guess it is better than sleeping all day and getting fat. Oh well. KillWhitneyDead makes me a sexist and I think I should bury someone alive cause of it;). Next month my friend Jon moves to Austin and he wants me to go with him and get a job at the wal-mart there. It sounds better than what I am doing now but it is way to expensive in my opinion to make it on your own in a bigger city without any finicial aid from a family. Anyways, my band needs to practice we haven't done so in almost 3 weeks. Lazy.